Lullabies and toilet rolls

I did it. I caved in. I ordered the toilet rolls online. From China, sustainably produced. But still. Why? Why toilet rolls? I guess I’m not immune to the panic buying bug around me. And although I don’t need 24 rolls spare toilet paper, it does comfort me to know I’ve got them. Isn’t it funny how we can feel better when we have a sense of control?

For the last few days I’ve wanted to write this blog as I felt God had spoken to me about what I needed to type up. I woke up one night, not being able to fall back asleep after breastfeeding my youngest when suddenly I began having this download of scriptures from the bible and songs and phrases, even the title of this blog. But I hesitated to post it as I thought it might be lame to write in the midst of the coronavirus. Then again, I hope it will bless someone. So here we go.

When the virus started to spread from China to Italy, I started to feel a little anxious and uncomfortable about the outbreak. The whole reason I’m writing this blog is to share my journey from fear and anxiety into the Perfect Love of God as perfect love casts out all fear, but I’m not always free of fear. So I want to share my process with you.

Psalm 91

A few weeks ago, I sensed the Holy Spirit telling me to read Psalm 91. I’m very familiar with this psalm as it is the psalm we chose to listen to in church during my sons’ dedication service. This version is sung by the amazing band Sons of Korah (and you can have a listen here if you want). A dedication is when after you’ve had a baby you thank God for the birth of the child in church, usually accompanied by friends and family to testify that you will raise your child to know God. We chose this psalm as a prophetic declaration over our son’s life, but never did I imagine we would actually have to deal with a plague, or the pandemic called coronavirus, in our life time. Psalm 91 speaks so well into our reality right now and it speaks to me in a deep way about God’s character.

Lauren Daigle, a Christian singer-songwriter, wrote a song which is very current and fitting for us as we go through this pandemic called Covid-19. Have a listen when you can, it’s on repeat on my phone at the moment 🙂


Almost every night I sing to my children and for the last 10 years I’ve been singing one song over and over again. It’s a Dutch song and those of my readers who are Dutch will know it: it is “Ik zag een kuikentje” by Elly & Rikkert. The song’s a lullaby depicting a chick hiding under the wings of it’s mother. And it’s a song about hiding under God’s wings. It is completely based upon Psalm 91 I realized later. These are the lyrics of the lullaby translated into English so you get the gist of the song.

I saw a little chick hiding under his mother’s wings, that’s how I want to be with you Lord, hiding under Your wings where I am safe.

So as I have been singing and rocking my children to sleep countless nights with this lullaby I felt the Father saying He wanted to do the same to me. To sing over me. To tell me to come and hide under His wings.

His wings? Since when is God a bird? Or a mother? And does God actually sing to us? Well, the bible talks about wings quite a bit and there are a few bible verses I would like to share with you that really comforted me. The first one is from Psalm 91:1-4

He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High
    will abide in the shadow of the Almighty.
I will say to the Lord, “My refuge and my fortress,
    my God, in whom I trust.”

For he will deliver you from the snare of the fowler
    and from the deadly pestilence.
He will cover you with his pinions,
    and under his wings you will find refuge;
    his faithfulness is a shield and buckler.

Here it is, in verse 4: He will cover you with his pinions and under his wings you will find refuge. You can just picture this, God’s mighty arms wrapped around you, like a mother bird’s wings covering their chicks. Another time where God talks about being like a mother is in this verse from Psalm 131:

I am humbled and quieted in your presence. Like a contented child who rests on its mother’s lap, I’m your resting child and my soul is content in you.

Psalm 131:2 (the passion translation)

Again we see God’s character describing something a child would do with its mother. To hide, to find comfort, to be cuddled, to sit on her lap. God made men and women in His image (see Genesis 1) and so motherhood is a depiction of His character even though we call Him Father God.

There’s a beautiful picture of God’s character in Zephaniah 3 (verse 17) which describes Father God signing over us. The song Reckless love which is sung in many churches at the moment refers to this scripture where God is both a warrior, fighting for us and a Papa God singing over us with love.

The Lord your God is with you,

    the Mighty Warrior who saves.

He will take great delight in you;

    in his love he will no longer rebuke you,

    but will rejoice over you with singing

Zephaniah 3:17 New International Version (NIV)

Just like I had been singing over my babies, so God sings over us and has been singing over us since the beginning of our lives, when we took our first breaths.

Healing in His wings

One really cool scripture comes from the book of Malachi, the Italian prophet (just kidding). The verse is talking about Jesus and how Jesus brings healing to us. It’s interesting to me that the word ‘wings’ is used again, this time not to bring us protection but to bring healing. How we need this right now.

But for you who fear My name [with awe-filled reverence] the sun of righteousness will rise with healing in its wings. And you will go forward and leap [joyfully] like calves [released] from the stall.

Malachi 4:2 Amplified Bible (AMP)

The wolf, the bear and the lioness

Last year on Mother’s day we went to church and when we came home I asked the children what they had done in church. They were very excited to tell me. They had been talking about mothers and what they are like. They were asked to write down which animal their mother would be, if she were and animal. This may sound a little strange but hang in there. My daughter and eldest son wrote down three animals: a wolf, a bear and a lioness. That’s what we think you are like mommy, you are like a wolf, a bear and a lioness. “You are strong and you protect us, just like the animals we choose for you”, they said.

Kind of strange maybe, but the fun thing was that a few months earlier I had received a prophetic word from someone in TSM (you can read about my journey there in this blog), a supernatural training course I was doing. I believe God speaks to us and through us and this particular evening we were asked to write down words about others we felt God wanted to say to them. I received a bunch of words as well. One of them being: momma bear. For me it was a confirmation that I was indeed protecting my young and was seen by God to be a good mother.

God also compares Himself to animals in the bible, in case you were wondering what a strange church I’m in. In Hosea 13:8 He compares Himself to both a mother bear and a lioness. How cool is that. The picture painted here is very graphic:

I will encounter them like a bear robbed of her cubs, and I will tear open their chests; There I will also devour them like a lioness, as a wild beast would tear them.

Hosea 13:8 (Amplified bible).

Here we see the raw love of God portrait for His children. Like a bear and a lioness. Our God is a jealous God, He is a warrior and He loves us dearly. This should comfort us, to know that Daddy God wants to protect us.

He wants us to have peace, to be in His presence, to rest there. He says He will give us peace that transcends our understanding (see Philippians 4:6-7). He wants us to be able to sleep peacefully a night, not worried about ourselves or our children. He wants us to run to Him for comfort.

Run to the Father

As I was listening to my Spotify list, a song by Cody Carnes came up (see below). It’s called Run to the Father. It immediately caught my attention, as the melody of the chorus is so beautiful as are the lyrics. Sometimes we want to be strong for too long ourselves, especially when we feel scared. God invites us to find our strength in Him, not to try to be strong in ourselves. He wants to be our Father and protector. Run to Him for comfort in this present time of trouble. Here are the lyrics to the chorus of the song, I hope it will bring you comfort as it did me:

I run to the Father, I fall into grace. I’m done with the hiding, no reason to wait. My heart needs a surgeon, my soul needs a friend. So I’ll run to the Father again and again and again and again

Pray God’s word

communion with bread and blackcurrent squash (as you can’t give children wine ;))

One final recommendation I want to make relation to Coronavirus, is this: pray the bible. My family and I are using Psalm 91 as a weapon against fear. We pray it, we sing it, we meditate on this scripture. There are many more bible verses that can help us right now and praying them out loud can really help you overcome and stay out of fear. Last Sunday (because the church was closed) my husband and children and I had communion in our house together to remember and thank God for the sacrifice of Jesus and the blood He shed for us to be free from fear and disease.

One great resource has just been released by Shawn Bolz, a prophet from the USA. He has written this free ebook with scriptures that you can freely use at home to pray God’s words over your life. You can find it here.

Please leave your favourite scripture and/or song for me to read in the comments below so we can encourage each other!

Love, Tjiskjen

5 thoughts on “Lullabies and toilet rolls

  1. Alweer een mooi blog heit heeft het meest aan de song van Mathew Ward our God is amighty fortress.
    Dat is de Heer Jezus voor mij een rots en een hoeksteen.
    Liefs heit

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  2. Een opbouwende blog! Vooral voor deze tijd!! Dankjewel voor het opschrijven en zo doorgeven aan anderen.
    De tekst uit Jesaja 43:1-3 heeft mij al vaak bemoedigd. Samengevat is het:
    ‘Wees niet bang, want Ik heb u verlost. U bent van Mij. Als u door grote moeilijkheden gaat, zal ik bij U zijn.’


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